Living in Chaos! Because why the hell not?

What's going on? Wait, I'm blogging now? 


(Disclaimer- The author of the blog is young and inexperienced. Nothing written in the below blog attempts to hurt sentiments, I apologise in advance if anything is offensive. Please enjoy reading! ) 


When I think about comfort, I think about a sofa, Netflix and some snacks. That’s my comfort zone, and to be fairly honest, I love it and I wouldn’t want to change it. I mean who would? That’s the sad reality, humans never want to change the ordinary and do something extraordinary, me included. Never in my life have I thought about “growing” or “doing something new”, so what brings me, an average joe, to this website?

Well, to be fairly honest, I’m tired. In my life, I’ve never actually done something out of the blue, I play by the rules, I’m a good kid, I watch all those motivational videos on YouTube and I like those “organize my life with me” type of videos. Every night, I find myself falling back to the same routine that I so desperately wanted to change. So, in short, I came here, because I wanted to do something “Exciting” or “Fun”.

Life, for me at least, is full of tedious stuff, you wake up, it’s Monday, you have to work or study, think about your future, and end up falling asleep to your ‘sad playlist’, because you realise that all your bloody friends are doing something and you’re wasting time.  These friends are working so hard, and you’re eating chocolates on the sofa crying about how your life is so miserable. That’s something I relate to and all those “Manage your time and change your life in 5 minutes” videos have not helped at all. So, what's more better than doing something out of your comfort zone?

Well yeah, I came here because I just realised that there may be millions of people out there, who have no idea what the hell is going on and just want to stop doing something, be positive for once and apparently "change for the better”, but to me, that’s all crap. No matter what step we take, we’ll end up wanting to be better, and slowly this turns into an unhealthy cycle, where you aren’t happy with this and you want better. We all want fame and success, but the people who have achieved it want more, “like seriously, aren’t you happy?, I’m out here cultivating barefoot on land and you own a good, expensive car, like dude, c’mon Be happy, if I was in your shoes I’d be happy”, but to be completely honest, we wouldn’t be happy, no matter the money or the admirers we get, and I have to admit, we all are in this cycle, and the only way out is stop comparing, “oh he has lotsa money, it’s okay man! I own a farm, and I’m learning a new skill!” but that doesn’t mean we stop challenging ourselves, because that’s how we discover what’s going okay and what’s not and how we can alter it, and you know what those old folks say right? “Change, Change brings you so many opportunities!”  Which is kind of true, today I’m doing something out of my comfort zone, and maybe it unconsciously makes the base for something I want to do in the future. So, the real reason I came here? I really wanted to let you all know that this is normal, not knowing what’s going on is pretty normal and you don’t need to become the CEO of some company to be happy.

Alright, that’s enough for today, I don’t think I’ll come back, but you know, I’m kind of proud of what I’ve done today


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