Filler: Fear (ft. fake friends)

Fear (ft. Fake friends)

If there's something about confidence that continues to intrigue me, it's that this so-called confidence is fragile, as fragile as a piece of glass.

I remember, back in high school, my Math teacher had us take a test, now, I was someone with a small amount of love for this subject, and I remember, when I walked up to the board to solve a question, I lost it. My brain stopped working and I got an easy question wrong, I cried about it for two periods, and my "friend" laughed and said "We thought you were smart" 

The gravity of words is something not many people realise. Words can make up a person's day or break their confidence apart, some people genuinely do not realise how their words affect people, but some people do, and they still say things that break your confidence apart like glass shards

For 14-year-old me, this was the end, I felt like a failure, a loser, an idiot, all the words out there for a person. I've felt insecure many times, but not about stuff like this. I've had people comfort me, but for this particular occasion I lived in my own misery, I destroyed my mind, it felt fear, and this fear ate me up. 

Sometimes, I feel fear is like an entity, it enjoys your misery, your suffering, your ragged breathing, your cries, this fear, feeds on everything and it grows stronger, so strong, that seems to be undefeatable. 

The only way, to break this cycle is to stop your train of thoughts, because the mind overthinks, that is the nature of the human mind, when you stop and press that restart button, don't be afraid of failure, and even if you fail, don't be afraid of correcting it, because, fear can destroy a person from the inside, it can make the human hollow, ergo, destroy it before it destroys your very core.